Is this what it’s like?
To lie awake and ponder
Possibilities
Neither good nor bad
But altogether
Ethereal
Just the same?
With a heart that burns
And a mind that aches
But you keep on running
Til something breaks
Inside
Makes way through
The walls
That are finally
Yes, finally!
Crumbling down.
I admit it now
My weakness
Is my strength
But it’s always
Far away
And so the tears
Flow outside in
And carry me
Downstream.
Unknown depths
I could drown
But the magic
Surrounds
In my dreams
I see clearly
For a second before
I blink
Myself awake
Once more…

marelle

poetry free verse deep thoughts true story

I can hear the constant thoughts
pour out, like a wintry wall of rain.
And theres something calming ‘bout this
endless falling, in and out,
of Joy and Pain.

Nowhere to run
when it’s all coming down.
The noise is blurring all around.

Look up and cry, but don’t know why,
it’s going and fading,
into night right now…

Oh my, oh my… dear heart.
You’ve done yourself so wrong,
so many times.

And I, oh I… I don’t know,
where we got lost in all the signs.

Maybe we’ll make this up.
Maybe we’ll go
and make things right.

Or maybe we’ll just get gone,
and try
to keep this
song
in tune
tonight.

Now where is it?
I can’t hear that certain sound
Not anymore.
I can’t feel it.

Now I’m fighting.
To find something
that I didn’t use to have to
search to find.

And what if it isn’t here?
What if it never really ever was?
Can I face that?

Illusional ponderings that swept right thru my dreams…

The rain has stopped pouring down.
Or maybe it’s there
and just won’t make a sound…

Will I ever be sure? Surely not.
But I’ve got to take you on your word.

It’s freezing and
this endless night has got
Me thinking
I should stop this fight

My heart and my mind
Are struggling to find
The reasons that came so quick
So long ago

But the sunlight has gone dark
And warm weathers far
From the places where words meant
Something here.

My deepest fear
Has fallen out.
And I can’t fall back
Not here. Not now.

And I’m sick. I can’t stomach
The truth spilling out
of my mouth. of my mind. out my hands
And I’m blind

but I see, now I see, what I should have
Done before…

Moments passed.
Loved. Allowed. Understood.
Gone and How.

Didn’t I know when I was…
Not until I wasn’t anymore.

I’m sorry.

Time misused and confused.
Stop.
No singing those blues of your eyes
Stare me down, pull me quicker than
Sands I could drown…

And the snow takes its time.
It unfolds and
It rhymes.
Inopportune.
But we climb, mountains just
To see it fall.

Can’t catch it all…

marelle

poetry free verse rambling words written